21st August 2009: The day started abnormally and I'll tell you y.
Generally lectures everyday in coll start at 9 . So i leave by 810. But friday lectures start at 10 so I could leave late. But I get up early and I tell u y later . It just happens . Buts thats not abnormal. I go 2 brush my teeth and then I go 2 switch on my comp as usual .Ya early in the morning.But now the abnormal part .I dnt switch the comp on coz I feel 2day I will study DBMS 4 Monday test and withdraw my hand 4m the switck computer ka. Wow Samson what a noble thought.So all excited I brush my teeth fast and take my milk and chapathis and sit with my book .I cant believe I was so seriously in a mood 2 study that day. Then right upto 905 I study .Right from 740. I get ready 2 leave in 5 min .Ya it dsnt take me time. I was very happy that I studied and all . Then comes the Bad part which changed my mood 4 and that 2 drastically. A phone comes .My Mom picks the phone and she starts talking in konkani so I understand its my granny and so I was about 2 say bye 2 my mom and leave and then I hear "Thank You". And it might sound weird that this phrase spun my head badly . What a bad effect of such a good phrase!!
That's because I had done something terrible and that phrase reminded me of that.
I stopped in my steps looked behind at my Mom and she smiles at me realizing that I realized . And 4 u guys the terrible thing I did was I forgot my MoM's birthday. And I remembered that when I heard "Thank you". I went back 2 her waited as she was talking on the phone feeling terrible about myself. How cud I ever 4get .Only my mother is at home with me and I can't remember that 1 person's birthday.Okay I remembered my dad's birthday which was 10 days ago . But how cud u 4get ur mother's birthday????
She spoke 4 a long time on the phone .So i realized now I had 2 wish her while she was talking on the phone and leave coz I was getting late. So I said "Happy Birthday Mummy " kissed her on her cheek .Then I left for college and that walk to the bus stop was terrible.All my memories were haunting me. My brothers are not in Mumbai .Studying outside 1 in Pilani Rajasthan and the other in Tolani near Pune. That made me feel more bad . Coz I miss them a lot and I realized they wud have told me if they were there.And I had 1 more reason 2 miss them. I had a tear in my eye after long time and i said let it flow. I call Darryl and tell him' I have 2 get in the bus with him '.otherwise I knew I wud surely cry.Haan i get up early coz now a days I dnt get proper sleep coz my brothers are not here I dnt feel proper ( I dnt know a proper word 2 describe this feeling) without them.
I was a lil late so I run 2 the bus stop and shit i missed them.So i got into any bus and again start thinking about my brothers and all the time we used 2 spend 2gether wen they were in Mumbai.Then I just look around at the surroundings trying 2 4get all this.Then I start thinking of what my mom told me the previous day..... ..." Sam u dont talk 2 me only. whole day on the computer . When rohan was there at least he used 2 come in the kitchen and talk 2 me ". And all this was literally cutting me like a knife. I am supposed 2 be her favourite son(That's wat rohan calls me) and my mom treats me better than rohan I agree 2 that also. And i dnt even talk 2 her.Then i realized that I hardly speak 2 her . She atleast speaks 2 them(my brothers) over the phone .I didnt have any quality time with her. Only basic and necessary talks that 2 wenever she is there at home and whenever I am there.Both of us are hardly 2gether at home . I have coll whole day. Evening I come home she goes 4 mass(to church) and then 2 the bazaar . So the only time we talk is just b4 sleeping that 2 while watching tv and that also i stopped watching coz i am so addicted to the computer.
Then I guess I reach.I get down . But all the time I was praying that Kapil comes 2 coll and i cud sit with him and talk coz i didnt feel like telling darryl coz he was in a very happy mood that day and I knew it and I know kapil understands me.But this kapil is never on time . I also entered the class late . Luckily I got 2 sit alone so i cud call kapil 2 sit with me wenever he wud come and i didnt want 2 sit with any1 else although ashima called me 2 sit with her and darryl. But i wanted 2 be alone or with some1 i cud share my thoughts with.But kapil the idiotic fool dsnt come 4 that lecture and again I am all alone thinking all the similar thoughts again and remembering my brothers who I really miss a lot.Then I thought this idiot kapil wud come at least next lecture and I wud tell . After the first lect darryl asked me what happened and I told him nothing. Luckily he was happy so he didnt ask me further..Then we had practicals and somehow my mind slowly drifted away 4m that topic and my mood calmed down somehow. And then Kapil comes during the practicals and i tell him" i wanted 2 tell u something . Gum baatna tha . Lekin abhi nahi .Saale tu hamesha late ata hai.Abhi Main thik hoon ".And he says he also wanted 2 talk 2 me regarding his diary and so i said we'll speak later.So slowly my mood went back 2 normal.
And my mood was fine wen I reached home coz my mom didnt make me feel bad . Instead i got cake 2 eat . And that y ppl love their parents and so do I.Sorry Mummy.
